Walking in the rain

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I am trapped in the snare I set up a moment ago
Feeling drown and dizzy not knowing where to go
I drank the poison made by myself 
Desire, infatuation, confusion and affection blur my eyes

I am not sure if those are tears or rains falling on my face
while I am walking down the familiar road
I cannot breathe no more
I need to let go of what is not mine to hold 
Have I mistaken it as a love song?
Is it just another fool's fairy tale?
Maybe I am an unicorn that is never meant to belong to no one 

It seems so beautiful and hopeful 
But I can't pretend not to hear the sad undertone

I am sitting here trying to utter a word that is chocked in my chest filled with emotions
Is it love or just yesterday's illusion?

I told myself, silly girl, 
Love yourself 
Enjoy the present 
Walk on the path that you are to go 

I wanna be a friend and learns to love for real 
But I can't keep the toxin from flowing through my veins. 
and the tricks that my mind is playing on me 

Is it wrong to want a little bit more?
Is it wrong to want something special?

I am not sure anymore if I am just pretending and playing it cool
I cannot play this game anymore
Wishful thoughts have gotten loose and run wild 

I am sorry if I turned out to be a big disappointment
I am just a silly girl that doesn't know better

What does it take to leave it all behind?

Then came the gentle soothing voice, 
"You don't have to have it all figured out now
Accept whatever it is
Just enjoy the ride"







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