Wholeheartedly

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I am not at peace
I am in pain and anxiety daily
with the thought of not being chosen
The thought of not being committed wholeheartedly
The thought of being tossed aside
Why do I keep holding onto him
I can be alone
I am worth being committed to wholeheartedly
I am worth being the priority
I am not an option

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