Bleu Neptune

 The most important message and verse of this book is Joshua 1:9 "This is My command: be strong and courageous. Never be afraid or discouraged because I am your God, the Eternal One, and I will remain with you wherever you go." Israelite were just coming out of the wandering and full of fear and doubts of the unknown future.  Sometimes we humans rather stay in situations that are bad for us than change. And God knew exactly how Israelite felt, He made it a command for them to go in courage and faith for He would be with them wherever they go.  This verse resonates with me in my life as well. As I am at the exit of wandering in my life but I am really scared to take the next step. God's words have given me strength to take a leap of faith.  A couple of verses that also stood out from the book : Verse 18:3 "How much more time do you intend to waste before going to claim the land the Eternal God of your ancestors is giving to you?" God was speaking to me as well ab

I am at the point of seeing my own immaturity  Not because of your accusation But I have started to be aware of my addictive behavior of holding onto something that is toxic to me  You do not love me  Yet I insist You do not owe me to be the role of fullfilling my need You do not owe me to be the role of being taken care by me so I could feel my sense of existence  You never asked me to love you You never asked me to be intimate  It has all been a game designed by myself  and you were merely playing along out of boredom or sympathy Today I drop the victimhood I quit labeling you a personality disorder Today I see my own addiction  I start to facing my own fear instead of using you as an excuse and distraction for avoiding pain. Thank you for teaching me how to love  Thank you for being the hope that I needed to keep going  Thank you for just talking to me