Not Going back
"No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he's not the same man. " ---Heraclitus I came across this quote from a book I was reading today. It really dawned on me that part of me still held onto my life before moving back here despite it's been 6 or 7 years. I would think about how great it would be if I could go back to this place or that place. And that thought made me happy and sad at the same time because I felt stuck and trapped and unable to get out from here. I surely was happier being away from here yet I also had moments of struggles wherever I was. It's really not about where I am but how I am. I want to live and be myself regardless my physical location. It surely is difficult to make friends with people here with whom I don't relate to. I am not sure how it would go friendship-wise as I am not really open up yet. But I surely don't want to miss out the present because of the past and the future.