Genesis 23-28 You will be my God

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This is a story about three generations of a family - From Abraham to Jacob. I observed that habits and traits passed down from generation to generation. Issac did the same thing as Abraham did by lying to the king of the place he and his household visited and resided that his wife was his sister in order to avoid being killed. And I also noted the similar story of rivalry between brothers in Issac's sons, Esau and Jacob as in Adam's sons, Cain and Abel. And the fight between them began from right in their mother's womb, then, continued to the day they were born and culminated by the death bed of their very own father. The problem between the two brothers probably had got to do with each parent's favoritism. And it was a pattern descended from their early fathers. Fortunately, neither of the brothers were murdered this time.

As I was reading through these chapters, I was trying to read them like any story of any good fiction and turning off the old mode of religious mind. I had to remind myself that it didn't really matter if the story actually happened and if God was really as the book depicted. As I thought that I couldn't get anything out of the story then all of sudden the part where Jacob used a stone as pillow and God appeared in his dream stood out. Jacob was fleeing to his mother's family and it surely was not an easy task having to suddenly pack everything with you and run away from the place he was most familiar with leaving behind his family. Up until his dream, he was yet to have his faith in God.  Frankly, he was not an honest man and was easily swayed by his mother's words. However, one evening during his exile, after God spoke to him in his dream, he started to grow awe in his heart toward God and proclaim that He is his God. 

I thought of the other day during walking that I just spoke in my heart to Jesus that He was my God and I chose to have this faith and everything else didn't matter. I have needed Him the most during this challenging period of my life. It kind of paralleled with Jacob's encounter with God. It was not us that found God but rather through the darkness and rock bottom of our lives, we were found by Him. 

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