Rich In Love

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It's been easier that the pain isn't as strong. 

I have started to be able to enjoy simple things I do at each moment .

I have felt an ease I hadn't felt since so long.

Yet I cannot help but observing you from afar.

How I wish you were able to feel how much I loved you and I still do

How I wish you were able to connect to yourself within and feel

Words have been spoken

Poems have been written

Tears have been collected in a jar

and

Pains have been felt 

Yet you still cannot see me 

You left me hanging here holding a hope that was never really there

Being humiliated, devalued and rendered insignificant became my sentence from you for daring to attempt a connection with your heart and soul. 

I don't regret having ever loved you

Even if you won't even dwell on a thought of me.

I have loved foolishly 

Yet I loved with all my heart

In love, I was so rich that the biggest wealth in the world cannot compete with me. 

But where can I go from here?

It would be foolish to stay in this same game of Hide and Seek

Because I have seen myself being abandoned by me in the name of love

It is time to love me 

I love you but I love myself even more

I want the best for her 

Because she deserves the best kind of love and connection simply as who she is 

I cannot wait for potential 

I cannot wait in this dream

I will close this chapter whether you keep reading the same page or not 

I have to go where my heart leads

I am the richest person in the world

For love is within me always





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