Grief

Trying to recall what it was like before 

Coping and navigating it all on my own 

I did it despite feeling lonely at times 

But there wasn't this much tears 

I can't remember what it was like before

Because I am not the same anymore

I am feeling this absence of something in my heart 

Part of me is still trying to revive the phantom that might not have ever existed

 

I am grieving for what could've have been and the part of me that died with it.