1 & 2 Chronicles

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Israel' splitting into two nations represent the internal struggles and division within. As I see myself dealing with troubles and challenges with getting myself back on my feet and attachment injury triggered by betrayal in relationship at the same time, I finally realized why I was reading these two books of constant cycles of conflicts, betrayals and repentance. The season of endless struggles, distraction, mistakes, feeling abandoned and helplessness in life. The only solace is give up our own ego and old way and look to God or consciousness within for help. May He guide my way back to peace, love and joy. 

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