Like the wind

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He came out of blue like the wind
Off he went like the wind as well
He is not the type that I normally find attractive
Yet it had been two fun days of adventures
I don't like how he is so skinny and not tall enough
I don't like that he likes taking photos of himself like a girl does
I don't like that he is more afraid of dogs than I am
I don't like his over confidence
I don't like that he seems to have way too many girl friends

But somehow I seem to like him
Ever since we met
I just can't stop thinking about him
Maybe it is just my old habit of liking someone too quickly

I never knew that we could have met in person
I never felt guilty that
I erased him many times from my life
Because I knew for sure that he was not the one for me
Yet he seemed to stick around

Then why does my heart ache that now he is gone?
Why is it so hard to let go of someone that I barely knew
Maybe I just want to have a friend by my side
Someone who could inspire me and go on adventures with me
Someone who doesn't mind that I could be quiet and talkative as I please

I just can't help thinking about him
I just can't focus on my life anymore
When will I ever meet that one?
If I still can't control my feelings whenever someone appears in my life

I don't know how to keep a relationship with anyone
I want to love yet I am afraid to love
afraid to be seen
afraid to be naked with my heart
Because I can't be anyone else other than me
Maybe his appearance has stirred something in me
that I still want to love and be loved

I can't stay in my lonely island all the time
I am also sure what I really like in a guy
Someone speaks the language that I love
I just can't be someone the traditional culture expected me to be
I want to live free

It has been a few days without hearing from him
I know that I am fine
I just can't help thinking of him
Maybe as days go by
Everything will be back to normal like before




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