Genesis 11-17 Faith

I am not a biblical scholar nor am I an expert in ancient Greek and Hebrews. I don't know what the story of Abraham means to a pastor, a devout Christian or another person. Even since I deconstructed my faith from fundamentalism, I have been  wanting to read the scriptures in a different way. Most of time I choose to ignore it because I am afraid my old way of reading it literally would have taken me nowhere. Ironically, it took me watching the series, Lucifer to have me interested in reading the scriptures again.

So I have picked up where I left it a long while ago since Genesis 10. To be honest, I wasn't really inspired by anything I already read so many times that same old story of Abraham moving to another land that God promised to be his place and Sarai and him trying to have a offspring but in vain. But it didn't dawn upon me until I started to look within myself and my life with the story. I am in a very difficult situation in life like Sarai's barren womb that does need some faith and planning. I surely would have easily chosen the path of Sarai trying to fix it in my own way. But how much I do want to have faith in the universe, in God that He will help me to pull through like Jesus fed thousands with just a few loaves of bread and fish. 

It has been faith, even if it seems preposterous to others, that has guided me all long the way. I knew that I did not want to go back to the old way so I chose to walk the less traveled, misunderstood way. I surely have made a lot of mistakes. But I do not regret for having walked the path. And I really do feel that I am right by the exit waiting for the right timing to leave the long dessert road and enter a new chapter of my life like the child God promised to Abraham and Sarai would to be born. 

In Chapter 17:1 God commanded Abraham to be "blameless and true" and somehow those two words tug something deep in my heart like God is speaking to me to show up, be authentic, come out of my hiding and choose to do the right things.