Declutter : Restart Again

This past few days, I was back on decluttering some of my stuff because I felt the need of doing so. I felt stuck, distracted and overwhelmed by so many to-be-done and to-be-used things in my life. A language learning book sitting in the shell might seems harmless but it seems to add a unspoken burden to my mind. It always feels good to purge things that don't matter anymore in my life. It is by getting rid of stuff that I can truly focus on what is essential, like writing the blog. I really do love express myself here whether there is someone to read or not. I also like that I don't need to waste paper or accumulate physical notebooks. I do need an outlet since I have nearly no one to talk to in real life except for my online best friend that I never met in person and the therapist. So I have resolved to start writing here more often. Maybe a random stranger would be able to relate to what I share or be encouraged in some way. At least, you would know that you aren't alone with your struggles.

Through this time's purging, I have learned to not to be too hard to myself and not to aim for perfection. I wanted to get rid of much more stuff than I could handle and that unrealistic expectation from myself was debilitating. Like, part of me I wanted to be totally free of burden and only have necessities in life but in reality that I still can't part with many things. I have learned that it's okay to still want stuff. Maybe they do matter to me at the moment. And if they don't later, I can always get rid of them. Yes, I am a minimalist and also a collector of toys. What a contraction, right? But with minimalism, I have learned to only collect what I absolutely love. And it is a process, I should respect myself for having to have certain amount of time to be able to get to the next step. Like, when I was into board games, I couldn't imagine parting with any of them. But eventually I got rid of all board games except for one which I enjoyed playing with my family with. And yesterday I have also made a decision on not to get the new expansion of the board game anymore. Because I barely play with the ones I already have. I am even thinking about getting rid of most of the expansions that I have. Maybe by doing so, I would feel free to play the game more often.

If you can't really decide on parting with something, just keep it and find a place for it in your living space. And eventually the time will come if something is meant to part with you. When the time does come, be thankful and glad that you have learned to let go of this and that and you have moved up to the next level instead of feeling bitter and thinking that you should've had gotten rid of it long ago.