Sunshine

 I will always love you, even though I am not good at saying these words out loud to you.
I don't want it to be a burden to you.
I don't understand the shift, nor do you comprehend my love for you.
It is deeper than feeling.

My love started to grow for you from all the laughter, the silly nonsense we shared, the games we played, the videos we watched, and the supermarket and airport trips you took me to.
How could I not love you?
Not to mention the rare moments
when you opened up your heart and shared your struggles

You can't expect closeness without me falling for you.
Your withdrawal and pushing me away arrived unexpectedly, with words cutting my heart like a knife.

I always mirror what you give me.
So, this time, I said some words that prompted you to say goodbye abruptly.
You're my sunshine.
You make me smile like a sunflower beaming back at the sun.
But at times, you're also the one pouring rain on me.

Somehow, I have a feeling that I have to let you be, even if you aren't coming back.
And I have to come back home to myself.
I have been away for too long.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for being part of the journey.