Bleu Neptune

I never did drugs, but you became my opium, cocaine and heroin.  I tried really hard to replace you with what money could buy.  But I am about to relapse after more than one year of withdrawal upon seeing your blue eyes.  I resisted seeing your face and hearing your voice and attempted to throw you into the dungeon.  But you haunted me in my thoughts and dreams I still willingly listen to whatever you want to say. You aren't even a prince.  You are merely a troll and jester.  Yet, you still make me smile brighter than the sun.  I fear that I still gravitate towards you.  I fear that I might lose you again after getting used to your presence.  I fear that all this talking is like grasping sand in the wind.  But I love you. The only thing I know it is true.  It is more than wanting to trap you.  It is like a warm and long hug I have been wanting to give you with my soul and whole being.  It is alright to love with boundaries. It is alright to love from a distance.  It is alright to l

I see your name and it stirs an ache in my chest Once we were friends Once we were almost lovers Now we are nothing more than strangers.