Unhappy
To be honest, I am really unhappy. I don't know what has gone wrong. It is by God's grace all along the way. It is not easy to tell just someone randomly about my story. I hate to feel that I am gonna be this person whom someone from church wants to speak to or spends time with just because that is his/her job. I hope someone could just want to spend time with me because he/she likes the way I am. I hate pretending to be Christian-y. Oh dear, when I was asked if I got time to meet up, I was really anxious. I felt that I had done something wrong. I feel more and more unhappy in this "family". Yet, I don't have another one to go to.