Bleu Neptune

Heavenly Father Heavenly Father Heavenly Father Heavenly Father You were there before I was born You're still here when I am alone You know my thoughts  before I perceive them You love me Ever more How great is your love For me a lost drifter How great is your love My Savior, Jesus You were there before I was born You're still here when I am alone You know my thoughts  before I perceive them You love me Ever more Heavenly Father Heavenly Father Heavenly Father Heavenly Father

*This is a song I wrote with melody while I was in university I have so many dreams Some are realized Some are far behind There are so many things I wanna do everyday No matter what I've done I'm still feeling empty inside [Chorus] Maybe there's something more Something I've been searching for But I didn't realize And I have been waiting for you To awaken the feelings that I have (that are burning) inside I've got everything  that I think I need All what my heart desires I have loved and lost  wishing to disappear I have come to realize  Nothing is satisfying [Bridge] There's something more in this life There's something more than I thought And I don't know where to go But I've been searching, searching, searching for the hope. You said "Take my hand and don't be afraid  To take a step And you will find your way"

I wish I wish somebody could see me To see something real in me I've been fighting over this feeling Over this need to be different Is this really me? I still can't find what it is Can You see me? You gave me life Could you explain what's this urge inside of me I've been hiding inside of this frame I appear so happy trying to please But I long to be the way I was made I want to feel alive in You They told me I could only be this They expected me to be what they wanted me to be But You have lightened up the darkness You're guiding me to your beautiful way Sometimes I wish I could be the same Sometimes I wish I could be different Time to walk out of that place To be who I am I will give you all of my fears 'cause I feel alive in You I am running toward You giving all of me

最純粹的感動 深藏在心裡面 只在偶然的一瞬間 觸動我的心扉 時光匆匆 把你我帶離 直到某天兩條平行線 真的不再交會 奇妙的緣分 讓兩個不相干的人相遇 卻也在一瞬間 什麼也不是了 回首一看 過往的眼淚 悲傷 遺憾 我的心 卻是平靜的 唯有仔細地看才發現那走過的痕跡 我已經不再是我了 我卻也還是我 我渴望著流浪 但是旅途中 卻又害怕孤獨 想探索更多地方 卻又害怕著會想念著萍水相逢的人們和走過的足跡 我小心翼翼地努力不讓這些難得的關係斷訊 可是卻忘了 人生就是如此 相遇 相識 又離去 說不定 我的離去 我的到達 我的遠行 都只是為了那心中一個深藏的秘密 是什麼呢? 我也不清楚 心早已被腦中許多想法掩蓋 很想要獨立成熟長大 但是內心也偷偷希望能有人指引著我 真的 原來這就是長大的感覺 夢想 可以拋棄 童言童語 已不被予許 什麼時候 一切已經不再單純了 全部的事情都在改變 只有我停在原點 就好像 一個人站著 感覺四周都快速的轉動 我想要全世界 卻都什麼也不想要 彷彿 我聽見 稻草堆中我們的笑聲 跟蹤在蚱蜢旁邊 又殘忍地拔掉它的雙腿 在家附近展開自以為很遠的冒險 採著蒲公英跟其他的野花 不知什麼時候開始 一切都不這麼好玩了 現在我所做的 是為了什麼? 那真的是我所想要的嗎? 我渴望漫無目地遊走 優游在大海之中 散步在某個大街上自由地唱著歌 真摯地擁抱 向他人微笑 不必再找尋意義 因為它存在著 每天每天 只希望能跟你說說話 即使是靜靜地在旁邊 感受你的存在 就覺得 我的心都在微笑著 我想我必須學會 不去想念 不留戀許多的人事物 這樣我就可以來去自如 心也不用再掙扎了 跟著生命流動著 是黑夜 我就就寢 是白天 我就甦醒 生命需要擁有它自己的步調 來重新學會一些時常會被忽略的芝麻小事 而我要唱一首屬於我的歌

** I wrote this before I turned toward Christianity for solace. I was in a dark place stricken with panic attacks and anxiety, desperate and lost in my 17 year-old mind. On Tue, June 3, 2003 Light In the darkness I am almost blind But I see the light You are the light If you are there, I'll be alright. I know you're there, so I'll be alright. I tried to fly passing the demons and ignorant But it hasn't been easy in this cruel world I've seen enough I fell on the ground and bled here But somehow I got the strength to lift myself up off the floor It was then when I found you You've always been there giving me strength to pull through all the drags You wipe away my tears You hold me by your wings You whisper and relieve my soul by the breeze You lead me to the light giving me the real Sun leading me to the truth I've found the meaning of my life And I know no matter what You'll always be there within me I gaze at the sky feeling unbelievable Without fa...